Just met Ernie Ball’s Granddaughter, Tiaday…and got some picks (& pics) of course!
So, it’s the long weekend. I’ve been trying to get lackey friends to acquire Coke for me…so I can mix it with the rum that’s been sitting in my fridge (HA! Faked you out.). I’m not fond of any of the beer Dude fellows left behind. The alcohol content isn’t sufficient for the amount of pain and writing I want to get through tonight. I think I’ve satiated my thirst by making a big ass chocolate chip pancake. Cleaning off the keyboard later will provide much tedious fun of the cleaning nature.
I won’t lie. I’m working through a breakup…or “break.” I’m of the mind there’s no fucking difference, but so long as both inspire writing, I’ll trek through the briar patch. It sure as Hell isn’t the first trek, but so help me, Judas Priest, it better be the last time. I’m madly in love with the man, and he still feels much love for me, but life as an adult gets complicated in ways younger couples don’t understand.
I’m channeling Kurt Cobain tonight. The man experienced more emotional and physical pain than I have room to bitch about, and his guitarage skills even in death far surpass my own, despite the simplicity. Don’t mistake ease with simplicity. They are not one and the same. The abstract yet straightforward lyrics…I need to experience a whole other state of mind in order to replicate such composition.
Ever since I could remember I listened to Nirvana. I realized who they were when I was 5 years old receiving cancer treatment in the Winter/Spring of 1994. They made that one catchy song about teens and spirit, to which no one could understand the lyrics. Soon after I learned about the band, Kurt committed suicide. I don’t recall if I possessed a complete understanding of death at the time, but I knew many Rock lovers felt devastation by the loss. Now that I’m 27, I’m chilled by the notion of quickly rising to stardom only to throw your whole life away…or in his eyes, experience such draining pain on all fronts to the point of seeking final relief…even leaving his daughter behind. God, I can’t imagine having kids or a family of my own right now. I can’t imagine abandoning them.
I can’t imagine being worth millions of dollars just from writing and playing the right combination of chords and lyrics. Or feeling the pressure of representing the angst of a generation.
My heartbreak pales in comparison…though it still doesn’t hurt any less.
It’s hot as a snowball in a boiling pot of Hell’s water. The apartment supposedly conditions the air, but the amount of hot air blown around in my life must be seeping in. I’m wearing a bathing suit around here today, and Gil the Cat dons his cat’s pajamas.
This morning spawned song writing mode…and no, this morning felt like a dagger to the still-beating heart as someone screamed “KALI MA, MUTHAFUCKA!!!” I prefer menstrual cramps.
I honestly don’t remember the last time I wrote a song. Now is as good of a time as any since SAAAD will, eventually, start work on new material. Since I’m the newest member, I’d say I need to start pulling my weight. I’ve not established any particular process, but listening to old Aerosmith albums coupled with personal struggles bodes well for musical progress. Any tips?
Aerosmith has always been one of my go-to bands. They’re my favorite classic hard rock band. EVER. They fascinated me ever since I was 8 years old. By the time I was 10, I had devoured their autobiography. For the record, 10 year olds should maybe not know what Quaaludes and Barbiturates are…oh, well. Much of my tongue in cheek humor stems from Steven Tyler’s lyrics studied as an adolescent. What can I say? I come from a family who cherishes music and rebukes censorship…or as Ma & Dad put it, “Yeah, we forgot to read the book on parenting. You turned out fine.”
So, my hope on figuring out my writing process is, “I forgot to read the book. It’ll turn out fine.”